TAY CHiN XiAN

2010-12-07T04:07:00.001-08:00

不知何时开始,

我们沉迷于等待，而迷失了未来。
我们因为不等待，而错失了后来。
我们假装在等待，而遗失了将来。
我们不懂得等待，而让时间空白。

我们等待着别人的等待，没有了对白。

2010-09-20T05:37:00.001-07:00

You have no clue. That whatever you do, makes me seem like a fool.
I have no clue. That whatever I do, I'll still be under your rule.

So clueless, and it remains so priceless.
It made me skip breakfast, made me wanna curse, made me left with tears.

But whatever it is, it remains priceless.

2010-09-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

远远看着你，已是足够，满足。而你太靠近时，我会不自在。。。

我这么大格子的人, 什么都不怕。。。怕的是你太靠近我。

听到我那狂跳的心。。。

我的心意，你明白吗。。。

今天干吗要这么直率。。。说你要借的人是他。。。

我又可奈何呢。。。

叹。。。

2010-09-01T03:10:00.001-07:00

一颗种子，正被双倍的呵护。它长大的过程虽慢，但也能茁壮成长。那成长后的情景，
肯定很漂亮。

2010-08-14T23:22:00.001-07:00

含情脉脉，深情款款，如此高攀，实在大胆。开门见山，却怕难堪，谁能指点，重重
有赏。

郭静 - 心墙

2010-05-01T20:05:00.000-07:00

你的心有一道墙但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

2010-03-25T07:38:00.001-07:00

初级学院的生活，节奏好快
搞的我，非常不快。

上地理课时还不时的W-H-Y
实在让人，想骂 ???

此刻的我，不停的SIGH。。。
因为这样的生活，没的RESIGN。

如果RESIGN，前途衰败。
后果自负，很是悲哀。

只能咬紧牙关，猛游学海。
这样未来，才能自由自在!

Taeyeon's "If"

2009-11-25T17:29:00.000-08:00

Romanizations

Manyage naega kandamyeon naega dagakandamyeon
Neoneotteokhe saenggakhalkka yonggil nael so eobgo

Manyage niga kandamyeon niga tteonakandamyeon
Neol eotteokhe bonaeyahalji jakkoogeobi naneun geol

Naega babogattaseo

Barabol su bakkeman eobneun geon ahmado
Wimyeonhaljido moreul ni maeumgwa
Tto keuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga dwilkkabwa

Chungmal babogattaseo

Saranghanda haji mothaneun geon ahmado
Mannamdwi e kidarineun apeume
Seulpeum nanaldeuri doryeoweoseo inkabwa

Manyage niga ondamyeon

Niga dagaondamyeon naneotteokhe haeyaman halji
Chungmal al su eobneun geol

Naega babo gattaseo

Barabol su bakkeman eobneun geon ahmado
Wuimyeonhaljido moreul ni maeumgwa
Tto keuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga dwilkkabwa

Chungmal babogattaseo

Saranghanda haji mothaneun geon ahmado
Mannandwi e kidarineun apeume
Seulpeum nanaldeuri doryeoweoseo inkabwa

Naega babo gattaseo

Saranghanda haji mothanen geon ahmado
Mannandwi e kidarineun apeume
Seulpeum nanaldeuri dortoedweoseo inkabwa

Translations

If I were to go, If I were to go close to you
What would you think? Just thinking of this breaks my heart
If you were to leave, if you were to leave my side
How would I ever let you go? I'm always fearful of this

Because I was like a fool, I could only look upon you. Most likely
Because I was afraid of how your heart might change and we might grow farther apart
I was such a fool, not able to tell you I loved you. Most likely
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness I would receive after we meet

If you were to come, If you were to come closer to me
What would I do? I really do now know

Because I was like a fool, I could only look upon you. Most likely
Because I was afraid of how your heart might change and we might grow farther apart
I was such a fool, not able to tell you I loved you. Most likely
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness I would receive after we meet

I was such a fool, not able to tell you I loved you. Most likely
Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness I would receive after we meet

Damn good news received today.

2009-10-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Wah. I really never thought I could in the end have such fate. Initially when my english score was still a fail, i rank 147 in the level. Even though i had improved in L1R5 from mid year score of 36, to prelim 23. I was contented enough. But still, in level ranking i was only 147. Tat was just too unbearable. I put in effort enough to improve from 36 to 23, in the end only got 147 in level ranking. I thought, it was so unfair, to position students who had passed english but had lower L1R5 than me, and the fact that they can easily get a lvl ranking of 50~60. It was just the stupid English. But well, after being disappointed a while, i could still get over it.

But today, just before DnT lesson, Mr Ramthan was standing outside the Cybernetics room. Once he saw me, he spoke " chin xian, did you know the good news? "

I shook my head. Then he told me im rank first in class cos i passed my english. There was a change in ranking. The first impression i thought was that, "HUH?! wad? i tot my paper 1 and paper 2 both failed? could it be my oral...? "

Yea, so that was it. Initially i felt very happy la. Cos I repeated the scenario in my P6 time. Got the first position. But later then i thought, that this time the honour was not rightfully mine. Cos my L1R5 was still a rather low 22. There were people more suitable for the first position, who were just a little unlucky that they failed eng. Then in the end i was rather unhappy, cos i really didnt get it by skill, its by luck that i passed Eng while other exponents unfortunately failed. If they all passed English, there would be no place for me in top 5. maybe even top 10.

Suddenly thinking that prelims english were always harder than o lvl, I realised that if the Sec 4s were to perform the same way as they did in the prelims, all would have passed O lvls Eng. and wow man. Then, i will really have been pushed to the bottom.

Seriously. I must work hard. Next week, is the mock exams week. I MUST. And I WILL. Do better than the score i achieved in my prelims. That's all.

O lvls target

English - B3
Maths - A1
Combined Science - A1
POA - A1
DnT - A1
Combined Humanities - B3
Chinese - A2~A1

Total : L1R5 10. L1B4 7.

2009-10-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

不要对他说夜里会害怕...
别说你多晚都会等他的电话...

Badminton again! XD

2009-09-29T04:46:00.000-07:00

Again, I went for badminton again. This time, its with junze, leon, emelia, yiling and yanlin. Whoa, my previous badminton games are not as fun as today's. Seriously, combined with the lunch and the chat we've had, today is really one of the most interesting days! Haha, though it might not be too interesting for a particular person... Cos when we were somewhere outside coldstorage, we stood on the path that intersects a flight of stairs. Then, outof no where, an Ah Pek appeared. He then gave a contorted distorted jiao bin face, then scolded us with body gestures that we shouldnt obstruct the path. LOL. And he in the end went up to one of us and said in Mandarin, Hao gou bu dang lu! Wahahahaah. Damn funny siol. The victim was cursing and complaining throughout the lunch hahaha.

Now.. come the more interesting part...

During lunch, ok, after lunch, we sat and we talk and we laughed and we had fun. hahaha. in summary, there was just this one person we talked most of, and... wah. There was so much fun becos she just had too much things for us to talk about. LOL.

Then, we proceed on to dumb games, like, Black magic... If this is A, that is B, wad is C. Johnny whoosh johnny whoosh... One o'clock, three o'clock, five o'clock. Maybe theres somemore... i forgot le. Overall, today is one hella fun day!

That's all! XD

Played badminton today...

2009-09-04T06:57:00.000-07:00

Wow... today's badminton is one hella fun time man. Junze, yuchao, xing ho, fong jiat, jarron, leon, felicia went to canberra cc. the court was much different than that of nee soon east cc's. the court lines in canberra cc is much more inconspicous. anyway, had fun today, its a pity i haven got the chance to play with yuchao. hehe. aiya... but got one regret ah... junze really too skilled liaos. lose to him 2 games. 2-0, 2-1. dammmm.

I'll improve and rematch again!

Healthcare in singapore

2009-09-02T04:46:00.000-07:00

Healthcare in Singapore.
Self reliant policy.
Government keeps healthcare in Singapore affordable.

MEDISAVE
• Encourages Singaporeans to be responsible for their own health
• A compulsory saving scheme in which workers contribute 6~8% of their monthly salary.
• These amount of money can be used to pay for hospital bills and certain medical treatment when needed.

MEDISHIELD

• Even with MEDISAVE, some groups of people that required long-term treatment still has difficulty paying the hospital bills.
• Hence this scheme is introduced to help this group of people.
• This scheme enables patients that require long term treatment to make claims for large medical bills that the Medisave scheme does not cover.

MEDIFUND

• Even with MEDISAVE AND MEDISHIELD, there are still some groups of people that could not afford the medical treatments.
• Hence this scheme is introduced to make medical treatments more affordable.
• The government started with a fund of 200million, and the interest earned from this fund is given to public hospitals where they are being treated.

情非得已 - 庾澄庆

2009-07-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

难以忘记初次见你
一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里
你的身影
挥散不去

握你的双手感觉你的温柔
真的有点透不过气
你的天真
我想珍惜
看到你受委屈
我会伤心

只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气

只怕我自己会爱上你
也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己
爱上你是我情非得已

什么原因
我竟然又会遇见你
我真的真的不愿意
就这样陷入爱的陷阱

Unnecessary yakking.

2009-07-20T04:55:00.000-07:00

Silence is golden.

For you esp.

林峰 and 泳儿 - 明天以后

2009-06-19T22:46:00.001-07:00

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

林: 你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说
迟到的我的心动

泳:你的好你的坏
林: 我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你心疼我 (林: 我不要你离开我)
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳: 我对你感觉胜过爱情

林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)

合: 对不起 我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起

林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

泳:爱情总让人折磨
林: 所以我们才选择

合: 做比情人更好的朋友

傻瓜 - 温岚(female singer)

2009-06-19T22:46:00.000-07:00

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数 我们都懂

没有 什么不同

故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句

傻瓜

张学友 - 心如刀割

2009-06-13T06:32:00.000-07:00

我的天是灰色
我的心是蓝色
触摸着你的心
竟是透明的

你的悠然自得
我却束手无策
我的心痛竟是你的快乐

其实我不想对你恋恋不舍

但什么让我辗转反侧
不觉我说着说着天就亮了
我的唇角尝到一种苦涩

我是真的为你哭了
你是真的随他走了
就在这一刻
全世界伤心角色又多了我一个

我是真的为你爱了
你是真的跟他走了
能给的我全都给了我都舍得
除了让你知道我心如刀割

2009-06-13T05:35:00.000-07:00

你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色

于是你合群的一起笑了

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着(一直到老了)

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下快
你穿的保护色
为什么失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

突然好想你 - 五月天

2009-06-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终于让自已属于我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那么甜那么美
那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

Nice nice...四面楚歌 J Chou

2009-06-11T19:09:00.000-07:00

我的生活像拍了一出戏
有超多导演跟编剧
只说了台词一句
而他们配了八百个语气
操控着我的情绪
那根本不是我的口气
想让观众看好戏
最后的目的还不是在促进收视率
我不知道我有没有勇气

拆下他们的面具

我只知道好像认真的男人最美丽
会不会一直演下去到他们满意
啦啦啦啦啦
oh oh 我不可能再回头
啦啦啦啦啦
oh oh 我只能一直往前走
我在回家路上看到路标指着演艺圈
如果选择往前走我就必须强壮
走着走着莫名其妙冲出来好几只狗
我心想我什么时候认养这么多只狗
他们咬着苹果手里拿着长镜头
好像要对着我诉说什么阴谋
会说话的狗他说他是为了狗周刊
看能不能拍我多换几根骨头
如果伤害我是你的天性
那怜悯是我的座右铭 (狗狗狗狗)
需要我照亮你回家的路
那我会送你们手电筒 (狗狗狗狗)
我告诉他们八卦是会过去的
新闻是一时的生活是永久的
音乐是会留下来的我帮他们写了歌
因为我没写过保育动物之类的歌
我始终还是我谁都改变不了我
虽然我知道很多弓箭手
想射下往上爬的我

当我到了山顶上头谁都伤不了我

这些弓箭手辛苦了你们提笔的手
我还是会把你们当朋友
因为我知道这是你们大家的工作
加油咬着苹果的狗
虽然不是我的对手
还是可以成为我的狗
啦啦啦啦啦
oh oh 我不可能再回头
啦啦啦啦啦
oh oh 我只能一直往前走
深怕没有了新闻
才学会开车来跟踪别人
oh oh 为了什么
oh oh 为了骨头
偷窥别人的生活
自以为侦探看太多柯南
oh oh 拍了什么
oh oh 什么都没有

Water - Gaseous state.

2009-06-11T05:59:00.001-07:00

What a crap day.

Though DnT is rather fulfilling, other things that happened really messed up. Its so damn hard to do things. Even though some might not make it, but we can't just say that "oh, its not the whole group going, so whats the point." Though not all are present, we still have to try our best to come tgt don't you agree? Especially when some dun cooperate, some wait for people to confirm then they give their final answer. Why can't they just say confirm? Why must depends on others de presence then they are willing to consider? What is this man. Some got reasons, those are really understandable. But others are just blunt excuses la. Don't you guys know a small effort from everyone can smoothen all this rough surfaces? Some are really always available. But seeing how u all dilly dally and those wavering answers, some oso no choice but to follow a steadier boat. Overall, I, too, can follow a steadier boat if wanted to. But this old boat was the one that got me so far. Its worth far too much to abandon. The nostalgia that clings on to me. Really. Don't you all feel the same way too?!

What got this crack spreading.

The heat is too overwhelming. The bonds breaking. Atoms flying.

DnT is wearing me out...

2009-06-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

Its the start of DnT product-making... wad the. its so tiring... but somehow fulfilling when u accomplished some parts... sigh... hope it all ends soon...

tmr, do some touch up, and my product should be alive and kicking...

finally...

First time played pool

2009-06-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

Today's the first time i played pool. I sucked at it. but managed to lose yingjie peiryong yiliang by mostly a one-ball difference. However i managed to at least win one person :) first time play only you know? WOOHOO~

2009-06-01T04:50:00.001-07:00

Come to me if you need a shelter from the storm.

I'll be your warmth.

Will be here, even if you're gone.
Will be there, even if you weren't there.
Will be waiting, even if you're not going to return.

It will be unconditional and undying.

A new page unfolds. With a poem on the go, and a new story tats nvr to be told.

2009-06-01T04:43:00.000-07:00

下一步，O LVLs，听天由命，顺其自然，静观其变，见机行事，按兵不动，已退为进，等待良机，竭力出击，命中要害，胜券在握，满载而归 :)

Finally... its over!!!

2009-06-01T00:24:00.003-07:00

终于考完了! 现在的心情是如释重负啊。。。考完了后我马上奔出考场，找何老师对答案，结果。。。综合填空错了四题!!!!! wtf! 但是后来知道其实成绩还蛮理想后，总算松了一口气。。。:)

Tmr O lvl's chinese!

2009-05-31T06:25:00.001-07:00

明天就是华文O水准会考了。。。
真希望我能尽情发挥。。。不让以后自己会懊悔的事情发生。加油!

Your call

2009-05-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

25/5/09

2009-05-25T06:26:00.000-07:00

Proven. Its done.

Second chance. Faber drive.

2009-05-22T23:44:00.000-07:00

I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I' m just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet. (or theres so much i havent given you)
it seems so different with(out) a second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why I ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place to get a second chance.
Instead of holding you, I was holding out?

I should'v let you in, but I let you down
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask?

Now I' m in second place, to get a second chance.

冤

2009-05-19T05:05:00.000-07:00

你到现在，还在做梦。
我也累了。
一切，由上天来安排吧。

生命，没有意外。只能说是命运使然。

静观其变。见机行事。投机取巧。旁敲侧击。走为上策。全都是屁。

歌曲:被爱是幸福歌手:郑中基(my 2nd fave singer)

2009-05-15T22:16:00.000-07:00

你太美 You're too beautiful
爱你要先学会心碎 Before loving you, one must learn to be heartbroken
我害怕没有你 I'm afraid of losing you,
日子失去光辉 that will make my days become lack-lustre.
专心的爱一个人 Concentrating on loving someone -
对不对 is it ethical?

爱情的崎岖 Love's rugged pathways,
让人觉得好累 make one feel so weary.
你爱过谁 Who did you love?
为谁流过泪 Who did you wept for?

为他说过 The things you have said to him,
但从未实现的诺言 but was never fulfilled.
有没有后悔 Did you regret?
想不想说抱歉 Are you apologetic?

如果有机会 If you have the chance,
愿不愿重来一回 are you willing to repeat all this once more?

被爱是幸福 Being loved is a bliss
爱人是痛苦 Loving someone is a torment.
我连在你面前 When I'm in front of you,
想哭都不会 I couldn't cry even if I wanted to.

被爱是幸福 Being loved is a bliss.
爱人是痛苦 Loving someone is a torment.
我已经选择 I've already chosen this path -
爱你这条路 to love you.

被爱是幸福 Being loved is a bliss.
爱人是痛苦 Loving someone is a torment.
我连在你面前 When I'm in front of you,
想哭都没有泪 I don't even have the tears to weep.

被爱是幸福 Being loved is a bliss
爱人是痛苦 Loving someone is a torment.
我已经选择 I've already made a decision -
爱你只付出 to love you, I'll only give you happiness.

*and not wanting anything in return...

Memories.

2009-05-11T21:26:00.000-07:00

Sec 1 art lesson. Jay Chou. Sec 2 Watery watery. Basketball. Maplestory hacks. Sec 3 camp. Give me the champion cheer. Best Class award. Ice-skating. Escape. Your match. Zoo. Class Bbq. Sports camp. 15 rounds in parade square. Singapore -Indonesia camp. Ugly Betty. 几不错看一下. NOJM. Class chalet. Arcade. Basketball. New high score. Sec4 BC day. Farm. Sentosa. Beach volley. Escape. Nike air. The hidden jokes that only we know. The secret signal. Everything under the sun. Fund raising - the storeys we've conquered.

This is interesting.

On 8/12/08

当你编制了一个谎言, 你就必须编制多一个谎言来圆第一
个谎言, 让第一个谎言有说服力.

That is wad i said.

This is the sentence u told me.

"if u say a lie, u need to say 10 lies to cover ur backside, n when u say 10, u need 100.

quote from '3 ge hao ren'

Time is the best medicine.

2009-05-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

U said its the feel... the feel... the feel... the feel...

Is it driving you mad just like it is driving me mad?

I need a catalyst. It doesn't alter the chemical properties, but it kinda speeds up time. I need just that.

For now... I will just let it drive me mad....

周杰伦 - 白色风车

2009-05-08T22:07:00.000-07:00

白色的风车 The white windmill,
安静的转着 was turning quietly.

真实的感觉 The feeling was so real,
梦境般遥远 but at the same time, seemed distant like a mirage.

甜甜的海水 The sweet seawater.
复杂的眼泪 Complicated tears.

看你傻笑着 Seeing you smile sheepishly,
握住我的手 while holding my hand.

梦希望没有尽头 I yearned for the dreams to be never-ending.
我们走到这就好 Its already sufficient that we walked thus far,
因为我不想太快走完这幸福 because I don't wanna finish this bliss too soon.

很可惜没有祝福 Its regrettable, that there are no blessings.
但爱你并不孤独 But loving you was not lonesome.
不会再让你哭 I will never let u cry, again.

我背你走到最后 I'll walk by you till the end.
能不能不要回头 Could you please don't look back.
你紧紧地抱住我 You held me closely,
说你不需要承诺 and said that you don't need any promises.

你说我若一个人会比较自由 You said I might enjoy more freedom if I were alone.
我不懂你说什么 I couldn't comprehend what were you trying to imply.
反正不会松手 I just won't let go.

我背你走到最后 I'll carry you, till the end.
能不能别想太多 Could you don't ponder too much?
会不会手牵着手 Could we be holding hands,
晚一点才再到尽头 and let the end come later?

你说不该再相见只为了瞬间 You said that we shouldn't be seeing each other just for short moments.

谢谢你让我听见 I thank you, for letting me know.
因为我在等待永远 Cos I'm awaiting for eternity...

周杰伦 - 借口

2009-05-08T05:59:00.000-07:00

翻着我们的照片 Flipping through our photographs,
想念若隐若现 the pining for you became both apparent and inconspicuous.
去年的冬天 We laughed heartily in last years's winter.
我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 Saw you bid me farewell, while u're weeping.
对着我说再见
来不及听见 Before I could hear it,
你已走得很远 you're long gone.
也许你已经放弃我 Perhaps, you've given me up.
也许已经很难回头 Or perhaps, its too hard to turn back.
我知道是自己错过 I know that its my fault that I missed the opportunities.
请再给我一个理由 Please give me one more reason,
说你不爱我 for your not loving me.
就算是我不懂 Even though I may not understand,
能不能原谅我 Could you forgive me?
请不要把分手当作你的请求 Please do not request for a clean-break.
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的借口 I know that my persistence on leaving,
请你回头 is an excuse for you to be hurt.
我会陪你一直走到最后 I will accompany you for eternity.
就算没有结果 Even though there's nothing in return,
我也能够承受 I can still bear with it.
我知道你的痛 I know that your pain,
是我给的承诺 was because of the promises I gave you.
你说给过我纵容 You said that you gave me leniency.
沉默是因为包容 Silence was due to the condoning.
如果要走请你记得我 If you were to leave, please remember me.
　
　
如果难过请你忘了我 If you're feeling down, please forget me.

心血来潮，随兴挥豪

2009-05-04T06:25:00.000-07:00

面对群雄，毫无恐惧。
老神在在，很是神气。

争论话题，扯进平民。
无庸置疑，没有能力。

败局已定，拿出把柄。
结果竟是，自讨没趣。

惹来众友，忿忿不平。
怎论怎辩，全当狗屁。

辩论能力，无与伦比，
众所周知，不用猜谜。

若是辩论，何须攻击?
若要攻击，针对话题。

荒谬把柄，无凭无据。
莫怪别人，只能怪己。

尊师重道，基本礼仪。

本人立场，不用怀疑。
因为公道，自在人心。

隐风

2009-04-29T05:36:00.000-07:00

大家好，初次见面，我先来个自我介绍好了。本名隐风，昨天清晨刚满十六岁。在博大中学就读的我，平常惜字如金，沉默寡言。且还是个拥有铁汉柔情特质的男生。同时，身为处女作的我，习惯多愁善感，容易动怒。而每当心情跌倒谷底时，便会把心事憋在心里面，一声不吭的等待下课的到来。因为我知道一旦我下课之后，便能看到她白里透红的清秀脸蛋。

所谓的她，就是我这生中，最重要的"她"。无庸置疑，"她"是最重要的。虽然这样说会蛮不孝的，但我还是要说，"她"肯定比我父母还重要。有些能跟我聊上几句的人，和比较熟的朋友会觉得我有点被爱冲昏了头。是啊。。。谁说不是呢? 陷入深不见底的爱情海的情侣们，会有哪一对会为父母花多点心思呢? 我想十之八九，肯定会恨不得把父母踢开一边，置之不理，免得他们来束缚你们的自由吧。

"与其回家向父母虚伪性的嘘寒问暖，不如集中精神想想到底怎么能 surprise 她吧"? 我心中的魔鬼不怀好心的说出建议。"哈哈哈哈。魔头，你的歪脑筋还真多! 隐风，你今天就乖乖回去陪你老爸。你爸年纪一大把了，现在又身负重病，你还是早点回去照顾他吧。" 心里的天使好言相劝着。

可我这时，心里完全没有空隙能容纳我对家人的关爱了。脑子里想的，完全占据我心房的，都是她半框眼镜后面，炯炯有神，水汪汪的眼睛、天真无邪的爽朗笑声、乌黑亮丽的长发、完美幅度的眼睫毛，和甜美可人的樱桃小嘴。还有还有，就连天神也会嫉妒的身材比例。

在我心目中，就算仙女下凡跟她竞争选美，我也会毫不迟疑的支持，我的"她"。

虽然我为她如此的着迷，但我从不跟她打过招呼。因为，她就仿佛出自名师所烘焙出来的顶级蛋糕那样，鲜美可口，应当给有地位和身份的人来品尝，但却引来不计其数只，自不量力的苍蝇。而那些苍蝇，正是阻挡我幸福之路的障碍。因为，我实在无法鼓起勇气，介入不停在她旁边围绕着的苍蝇，跟她直接对话。

跟她说话的机会，一直没到来。直到五个礼拜后，在一个连班的活动里。。。

"大家请安静，别过度兴奋。赶紧依着老师所配对好的组员，顺利组成一对后，再等待下一个指示。" 李老师站在草场上，大声叫到。虽然听到老师的指示，叫我们快点各就各位，但我还是呆呆的站着原位，不知所措。因为我还在踌躇着如何跟还没献身的搭档合作。谁叫我那么的内向、不敢和人说话呢? 叹。。。

这时。。。一个动作轻似风、软如绵的女孩儿，往我的方向走过来。。。
"Hi同学，我是你今天的搭档。叫我诗云就好了。请多多指教。" 梦寐以求的声音，在热闹吵杂的草场上依然清晰、动听，丝毫不被杂乱的喧哗淹盖。她的声音一直不停的在我脑海里回荡着。。。

"咦? 为什么你没反应的呢?" 女孩伸出细嫩白皙的右手然后在我双眼前挥啊挥，试图把我从自己的梦境，拉回现实里。

我猛然打了个颤，重返现实后，刻意隐藏心中快要溢出来的喜悦，然后自我介绍，"你。。。你好。。。我是。。。四年四班的隐风"。不知为何，我的谈吐突然有些颤抖。"是我太久没说话了吗?" 我暗暗想着。

诗云想开口说话，但话还没说出口时，就被耳边传来李老师的嘶喊声所打断。"怎么叫你们自己找个搭档需要浪费这么多时间啊? 你们这样没效率，应当受惩罚! 给我跑草场两圈!"。天啊。草场的外围就有一点五公里了。跑两圈不就是越三公里了吗? 哇靠!

我转过头看一看诗云的表情，竟是一副脸清纯白! "你。。。你还好吗?" 我关心的问到。她没回复。但我能听见她的急促呼吸，胸部扩张收缩的极快。难道是哮喘病发作? "快! 快跟我说你的哮喘气雾剂放在哪里?" 惊慌失措。她有气无力的指着草场边缘，用来装我们宝贵物件的箱子。我没有犹豫，拔腿疾奔到了箱子旁，把里面的东西乱抄一通，终于找到了! 然后我又用了方才疾奔到箱子旁的双倍速度，飞回诗云身旁，迅速伸手把哮喘气雾剂递给她。。。

这，就是我们爱情旅程里的起跑点。

　　End of Part 1. 第一章。完

周定纬 - 远在身边

2009-04-29T00:44:00.000-07:00

不是每只船都不怕流浪的孤单
可是他们仍扬起帆因为心中有个彼岸
也许有些路注定要一个人走完
所以背包总是塞满你所有温暖很暖
原来你一直在我身边
不管距离多么遥远
就算乌云在眼睛里不散
你的笑容让我灿烂
原来你就在我的身边
不管时间怎么疏远
所以就算我飞上了云端
只要想想你住在我心里我就心安

不是每片叶都不怕坠落的遗憾
可是他们仍然飞翔因为身后树的期盼
也许有些梦做起来才知道很难
可是一想到为了你眼睛就不会流汗
原来你一直在我身边
不管距离多么遥远
就算乌云在眼睛里不散
你的笑容让我灿烂
原来你就在我的身边
不管时间怎么疏远
所以就算我飞上了云端
只要想想你住在我心里我就心安

原来你一直在我身边
不管距离多么遥远
就算乌云在眼睛里不散
你的笑容让我灿烂
原来你就在我的身边
不管时间怎么疏远
所以就算我飞上了云端
只要想想你住在我心里我就心安

围墙-李玖哲

2009-04-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

不知不觉又过了几天
我想我习惯了忽略
去忽略没你的时间

不近不远走在谁身边
我想我适应了一切
这一切没你的时间

某条路某条街某首歌某间店

某种熟悉但如今却刺眼

不碰触不跨越为自己留一些安全界线

谁都以为不听不看也就没感觉

一转身才发现空气里面

依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓也不能改变
原来是我在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面

某条路某条街某首歌某间店
某种熟悉但如今却刺眼
不碰触不跨越为自己留一些安全界线
谁都以为不听不看也就没感觉
一转身才发现空气里面
依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓也不能改变
原来是我在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面

谁都以为不听不看也就没感觉
一转身才发现空气里面
依旧飘散着记忆的气味

谁有所谓或无所谓也不能改变
原来是我在爱上你的那瞬间
就困在围墙里面

多可悲围墙都在对不对

想太多-李玖哲

2009-04-28T04:34:00.000-07:00

你笑着说他是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安那么沉重

只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么

虽然你不说都是错在我

太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

I'll be waiting.

2009-04-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

The second consecutive dream...

2009-04-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

2 days ago de night, i dreamt of us. I thought it was mere coincidence. But yesterday i dreamt of us again. Happy memories... flashback... reminiscence... its just too much to abstain from it. I can't. I couldn't. I don't want to. --------- Lose it all.

At least... if we can still mingle and converse... without queasiness...

And from there, we'll start to walk backwards... back to how we splitted our paths... and do some rectification.

Do some justification, correction, that can render our friendship non-fiction.

回到过去。。。

周杰伦 - 回到过去

2009-04-24T06:32:00.000-07:00

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯

时间在旁闷不吭声

寂寞下手毫无分寸

不懂得轻重之分

沉默支撑跃过陌生

静静看着凌晨黄昏

你的身影

失去平衡

慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋

该往哪我看不见

也许爱在梦的另一端

无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去

试着抱你在怀里

羞怯的脸带有一点稚气

想看你的看的世界

想在你梦的画面

只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去

试着让故事继续

至少不再让你离我而去

分散时间的注意

这次会抱得更紧

这样挽留不知还来不来得及

想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放

盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡

灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去

一转身孤单已躺在身旁

又回到过去

10 very very meaningful sentences...

2009-04-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

第一句　　

如果我们之间有1000步的距离　　　　

你只要跨出第1步

我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步　　　　

第二句　　　　

通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人　　　　

才是真正爱你的人　　　　

第三句　　　　

付出真心　才会得到真心

却也可能伤得彻底　　　　

保持距离　就能保护自己　　　　

却也注定永远寂寞　　　　

第四句　　　　

有时候　不是对方不在乎你　　　　

而是你把对方看得太重　　　　

第五句　　　　

朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人

第六句　　　　

就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie　　　　

第七句　　　　

真正的好朋友　　　　

并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题　　　　

而是在一起　就算不说话　　　　

也不会感到尴尬　　　　

第八句　　　　

没有一百分的另一半　　　　只有五十分的两个人　　　　

第九句　　　　

为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人　　　　

为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友　　　　

为你的难过而难过的　　　　

就是那些　该放进心里的人　　　　

第十句　　　　

冷漠　有时候并不是无情　　　　

只是一种避免被伤害的工具...

歌曲:太想爱你

2009-04-21T04:23:00.000-07:00

歌手:张信哲

慌乱城市中
连风都不自由
热闹的街头
就属我最寂寞
是爱的蛊惑
让我又兴起贪求的念头
有多爱我
够不够久
会不会走
藏在柔顺背后
你忠于自我
情爱里游走
从不曾见你低头
我却常犯错
像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺
转个不休
只放不收
停不了手

太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头

想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁

你已征服了我却还不属于我

叫我如何不去猜测你在想什么

太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我
太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓
藏在柔顺背后
你忠于自我
情爱里游走
从不曾见你低头
我却常犯错
像一个太忙太累太傻的陀螺
转个不休
只放不收
停不了手
太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头
想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我却还不属于我
叫我如何不去猜测你在想什么
太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我
太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓
太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头
想要全面占领你的喜怒哀愁
你已征服了我却还不属于我
叫我如何不去猜测你在想什么
太想爱你是我压抑不了的折磨
能否请你不要不要选择闪躲
只想爱你的我
太想爱你的我
难道只能在迷雾中猜你的轮廓

隐风

2009-04-17T22:12:00.000-07:00

在我心目中，就算仙女下凡跟她竞争选美，我也会毫不迟疑的支持，我的"她"。

跟她说话的机会，一直没到来。
直到五个礼拜后，在一个连班的活动里。。。

这时。。。一个动作轻似风、软如绵的女孩儿，往我的方向走过来。。。

"Hi同学，我是你今天的搭档。叫我诗云就好了。请多多指教。" 梦寐以求的声音，在热闹吵杂的草场上依然清晰、动听，丝毫不被杂乱的喧哗淹盖。她的声音一直不停的在我脑海里回荡着。。。

"咦? 为什么你没反应的呢?" 女孩伸出细嫩白皙的右手然后在我双眼前挥啊挥，试图把我从自己的梦境，拉回现实里。

这，就是我们爱情旅程里的起跑点。
　
　
End of Part 1. 第一章。完

END OF PART 1
第一章。完

白虎

2009-04-10T02:23:00.000-07:00

记得小二那年，父母第一次带我一同去神庙，祈求众神明们在新的一年多加庇佑我们家。那间神庙位于马国的一个小镇边缘。虽然神庙略显渺小，但无论是去神庙拜拜的信徒，或是神台上摆放的神像，都不胜枚举，根本不比其他神庙来的少。真是麻雀虽小，五脏俱全。

当我一踏入神庙时，众信徒们的汗酸味，以及烧香的熏味，一齐攻上我脑门，我不时感觉到头昏脑胀，有点窒息的感觉。香的烟雾迷蒙，无所不在，把我的眼睛熏得睁不开来。我顿时对这个寺庙产生莫大的反感。我从头到尾跟这我父母的后头，持续着眼睛睁不开的状态。
就这样跟着兜啊兜，天色已暗，而我和我家人来到了神庙边的一条小径。我们沿着小径，来到了一间阴深的极小破屋。那是一间毫不起眼的小破屋。我爸伸手拨开屏蔽破屋出入口的攀藤植物，揭开破屋里的奥秘。

小破屋的内部，设计为类似山洞的样子。阴沉沉、空荡荡的，唯一刺激我视线的，只有一只跟成年人一般大的白色立体物。这个白色立体物的神情不怒自威，露出坚韧、尖锐的一对虎牙 --- 口里还撑这一块吸引了无数苍蝇，正在腐烂的猪肉。白虎双目直盯着它正前方不远处的三个枕垫。

"快跪下" 老爸严肃的道到。我立即跪在妈妈旁边，双手合十。然后，老爸又开始喃喃着今天念了数百次的祷告。唯一不同的地方，就是加了一句 "请您保佑我们一家三口，不被奸人所害，一整年不犯小人，平平安安的度过"。这句话让我刹时感到困惑，与百思不解。自从来到神庙以后，不管是在拜哪一位神民，我老爸都是一直重复着同样的台词。可说是一路走来，始终如一。但现在出现的新词，却打破以往的惯例。因突然的好奇与一时的兴起，我抬头仰望着这威风凛凛，獠牙张嘴的白虎塑像。但我的眼神和白虎凶神恶煞，布满血丝，的怒目交际时，我的好奇心瞬间化为乌有，取而代之的只是无限恐惧与大腿内侧的潮湿。我竟然尿失禁了!

老爸依然僵着脸，面不改色，毫不为我的无能感到羞愧或惊讶 - 仿佛早已料到我会有如此下场似的。而妈妈瞧着了我的窘态，便忍俊不禁，"噗吱"一声便开始无止境的花枝乱颤。我当时好后悔自己小小年纪的，膀胱就那么不灵光，害得我不知该把脸面往哪摆。真是一生中的莫大耻辱。我当时所能做的，就只是下意识的细声哀叹。

从那年起，就算我有陪着父母去神庙，我在也没有向虎爷馨香祷祝过。更夸张的是，每当我要进入任何神庙时，我都会把双手阖住双目，不让自己看见竖立在神庙入口处的麒麟 - 因为看见麒麟会使我不自觉的想起我跪在虎爷面前的那一天。我认为当时的乏胆都得归咎于虎爷。因为它过度雄伟的神威曾把我吓得魂飞魄散，所以我才会对任何跟虎狮相关的东西那么敏感。俗话说得好，一日被蛇咬，终身怕草绳。而我，就是这俗语的最佳代言人。

我不敬奉虎爷的日子持续到了中三。中三第一学期，我不断地耳闻到了对我不利的飞短流长，和一些无中生有的谣言。就连同班同学都拒我为三米之外。我身为独身子，无兄弟姐妹可依，又不愿见父母为我操心，所以我一直没告诉我父母关于我在学校所在面对的挫折，一直把怨气吞进肚子里去。直到我无辜的臭名，远扬到老师耳里时，父母才得知的。基于我父母是道教徒，他们深信，我在学校遇到的波折是小人所为，而小人会处处刁难我是源于我坚持不去敬奉虎爷的关系。
依我料事如神，未卜先知的睿智，我察觉到我跟虎爷的相见之日已指日可待了。想到这一点，我身子不直觉地打了个颤。

中三三月六日，尽管我多么得反对，我父母偏硬拉着我前往马来西亚小镇边缘的那间神庙。当时的我，虽然已算身强力壮，体形也比其他中三同学来的魁梧。但比起父亲无可衡量的奇异蛮力，我的力道根本是微不足道的。对于这种无以抗衡的蛮力，我也只好逆来顺受，硬这头皮往神庙前去了。

如同往年，烟熏味与求神拜佛的信徒的臭汗味，参杂在一起的气味，再次向我逼来。我猛然的被熏退了三步。接着，为了避免毒气攻进我的鼻梁，我用纸巾塞着鼻孔，随着父母在神庙里乱钻。就这样拜啊拜，终于是时候探望今日我最不期待的压轴了。今日来到这里，小破屋的长相已不如往年。因为攀藤植物完完全全地把小破屋吞噬，而小破屋旁的杂草已长到了我的胳膊的高度。我们一家人如昔沿着小径，频频左顾右盼，试着索破屋的迹象，好不容易来到了破屋的出入口。

虽然破屋的外相看起来根本是天壤之别，但内相却没什么差。白色立体物依然竖立在破屋中央，而它前面的三个红色枕垫也保持原样。唯有不同的地方就是虎爷的嘴里，缺了块猪肉。再次看见虎爷神威的我，站在原地呆若木鸡，瞪目结舌。就犹如全身的血液瞬间凝固，害我动弹不得。老爸和妈妈跪在枕垫时，转头看我一动也不动的，便示意叫我过去跪着。踌躇了一回儿，最终我也只好乖乖的驱使我僵硬的身子，寸步走向枕垫。

老爸重复了专属虎爷的那一句祷告后，然后从皮包里拿出一张剪成人形的白纸。放在地上后，猛力使劲地用拖鞋拍打着这小人，打完了还在纸人身上踩上几脚后才肯罢休。老爸事后臭汗淋漓，体力耗尽的指着塑胶袋说，"儿子，从那里面拿出那块猪肉，然后放进虎爷的嘴里"。

听到指令的我，陡然感觉到一阵晕旋，刚刚凝固的血液此时正澎湃的逆流着。"不是吧。。。叫我正视虎爷我都不敢了，现在还叫我送猪入虎口? 门儿都没有!" 我试着把我惧怕的心灵所有剩下的勇气灌入我跟老爸的对话里。此时妈妈开口了，"贤，这个步骤是你必须要自己实践的。唯有这方法才能解脱小人的纠缠啊"。

脑海里瞬间浮起我在中三所受到的挫折与忍受的委屈。那些诬蔑我的同学，或那些常在父母嘴边缠绕的 "小人" ，在我心里萌出无限憎恨。怒气突然在我身体里燃烧，融入我的七经八脉，把正在逆流的血液轨回顺流。此时此刻，怨恨已帮我克服对虎爷的恐惧。

我揭开塑胶袋的结，取出冷冰冰的猪肉块，然后快步走向已被我征服的恐惧象征物。见白虎已近在咫尺，我双手捧起猪肉块，技巧性的堵住虎爷的嘴巴。我对虎爷的惧怕真的消失得无影无踪了! 异于上一次大腿内侧的潮湿，这次的潮湿却是在眼眶里。"虎爷，请您保佑我，不被小人缠身了。今年，我真的受够同学们的污言秽语了。。。我不想在承受这些不必要的压力了。。。" 我哽咽的说，热泪在我面颊上划下两道痕迹。老爸和妈妈看到我如此委屈感伤，便来到我正在抽搐的身躯。我们互拥相抱着。

回家的路上，我仿佛感觉如释重负，因为我已征服恐惧的快感，让身轻了许多。我知道，去了神庙以后，我已被赋予跨越恐惧的力量。那战胜自己的滋味，真是回味无穷啊!
回到学校后的几个星期，我再也没有听到讥讽我的话了。我恍然大悟，原来去了神庙那一趟，也让我赋予了重生的机会，就犹如欲火重生的凤凰一般。。。

周董

2009-04-04T19:07:00.000-07:00

夜黑风高，阴风萧瑟。
我独自走在鸦雀无声的街道上，
聆听着耳机里传来悠悠的哭腔。

认识我的朋友们，应该知道我在听谁的歌吧?
是的，无庸置疑，我在听周董的歌。

或许有些人因周董的口齿不清，立即对他产生反感。
但那一点小瑕疵，不足以让我停止欣赏他的创作。
他的歌，对我而言，就如同磁铁般，深深的吸引我。
他扣人心弦的创作才能，是当今世上独一无二的稀品。
再配上方文山的栩栩如生的词儿，更是超群绝伦。
这两者合二为一的搭配，都值得雅俗共赏。

哈哈，在说下去就把他捧到天上去了。
还是回到现实世界吧。。。
　
　

夜深人静的街道，带领我穿过无数转角。
我的思绪与他的歌声产生共鸣。
我的心情跟着歌词儿起伏不定。
我的心声，通过他的歌声，表达得淋漓尽致。

在此，我积极推荐你们去听周杰伦的歌!

CHiN XiAN

Nice song...

2009-04-02T04:42:00.002-07:00

歌手:林宥嘉

背影

三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛

所以才能拥抱你的背影

有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气

变成风也不敢和你相遇

我的心事蒸发成云

再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影

躲在安静角落如果你回头看

不用在意。。。

Meaningful song by my favourite Singer

2009-04-02T04:42:00.001-07:00

作词：方文山　作曲：周杰伦

窗外的麻雀在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁
秋刀鱼的滋味猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖的阳光象刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就象雨水

院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠

几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却

你出现在我诗的每一页

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就象雨水
窗台蝴蝶象诗里纷飞的美丽章节

我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾

那饱满的稻穗幸福了这个季节

而你的脸颊象田里熟透的蕃茄

你突然对我说七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴
雨下整夜我的爱溢出就象雨水
院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页
整夜我的爱溢出就象雨水
窗台蝴蝶象诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾

你是我唯一想要的了解

Color Codes. Red - Most IMPORTANT. Blue - 2nd. Purple - 3rd. Orange - 4th.

2009-04-02T04:42:00.000-07:00

迷路兵 - 舍不得

我没说，你没有问，
就这样关上了心门.
爱那么真情有多深
只能在心底找个人
拥抱的疑问会得几分
还在迷离飞腾
曾经的单纯远走的信任
必经那么并却回不了身

舍不得让你撑受更多伤痕

所以选择单方面加温

虽然我还未决定
放弃会不会快乐

一个人的未来该这么撑

舍不得听见你的哭泣声

所以选择面对你的眼神

让爱的人快乐是一种责任

就算分开比我想象的要疼
让爱的人快乐是一种责任
就算分开比我想象的要疼

This will be my 4th post today...

2009-04-01T05:05:00.001-07:00

After writing 3 posts, im mentally exhausted. My brain needs to be overhauled now. Also, I realised that after writing out in a blog, its just so... relieving and (pardon me for being a singaporean) SHIOK! Its as if bathing without turning the heater on, on a sultry and sweltering day. If I were to exaggerate a little bit more, it will be as if a mother had just given birth to her baby. Haha, imagine the relief!

I'm looking forward to my next posts :)

CHiN XiAN

憎恨

2009-04-01T04:33:00.000-07:00

你的存在已玷污了我最珍惜的东西。

被我牢牢封印在内心深处的魔鬼，
奋力嘶声呐喊，渴望挣开我的心牢。

在写这个博客的同时,
魔鬼千方百计, 试图撞下我曾经无坚不摧的心牢。
为什么拥有一个无坚不摧的心牢已是"曾经"?
因为你这个天敌的存在，
软化了我的心牢，使它不如当初的稳固坚硬。
现在我对付魔鬼的最后防备，已经不堪一击。

我终于支撑不住了。。。

魔鬼竭力挣脱我心牢的捆绑束缚。
终于，魔鬼如愿以偿，得到了自由。
也顺利把我的意识吞噬，接管了我的身躯。
　
　
　
　
现在，我已陷入黑暗邪恶的深渊,
完完全全的被魔鬼征服
　

地狱见。

Baffled.

2009-04-01T03:56:00.000-07:00

Today, i also uncovered some of the things you all spoke behind me backs. And i seriously find the whole accusation -that i eavesdrop on your conversation- invalid and nonsensical. What could i do to avoid hearing those words that you spoke so loud? I could not segregate my attention with the loud voice of yours, without unnaturally using my hands to shut my ears. I could not help it if i overheard something amusing and I responded by laughing. Thus, this argument of your's is invalid. There is already no point, no logical stand for you to rebut me in that sickening manner. Its equivalent to blaming and discriminating someone that had farted when you are the one that had body odour since the day your adolescence began. Yet, without thinking through with a human brain, you proposed me a complain that i eavesdropped on your non-interesting, boring, dull, lacklustre conversation? Have you ever heard of 恶人先告状? YOU are the one that led me upon the OVERHEARING of your conversation. YOU are the ROOTS OF THE PROBLEM! The undeniable 祸根! Yet you 反咬我一口? WTF? No amount of bible-reading could save you from your insanity man.

Just Go back to your emo world.

p.s. There's a distinctive difference between overhearing and eavesdropping. One is intentional, the other is not. Get that right dude. You said i 偷听. Which in fact, I only 不由自主的听到. Even in soccer, there's a difference between ball-to-hand and an intentional handball.

p.p.s. Next time, whisper- if you want the contents of your conversation to be private and personal.

Regret.

2009-04-01T02:56:00.000-07:00

One week after the post i made on 23/3/09, an undeniable realisation dawned on me. I felt ashamed that i made that post under a certain trance, or rather, under a mere moment of impulse. And I would only categorized my behaviour then as pure carelessness. Even if you think that it was puerile of me, i would not object to that thinking too.

Even as soon as the day after i made that post, I had already seen through the mist of my naive delusions. The mist had somehow blurred and obstructed my vision on 23/3/09, and dissipated without a trace the following day. I should have known better. Than to waste one day of my life hoping for a miracle, and clearly demonstrating my naiveness and foolishness, unveiled, to all that had read my blog.

Damn it all. What were the original intentions we all had behind rendering, an empty, vacant shell where there are no contents existing inside? What are all this redundant craps about? Why am I the only one making those efforts behind-the-scene, to try and adjust the derailed relations back to place, once and again? You all couldn't possibly see the sweat and futile struggle that I'm having. Even if you do, you won't be a saint, enough to appreciate it. I'm utterly worn and burned out by this impactful waves hitting me ceaselessly.

如果时间能倒流...

Humans just don't know how to cherish the things they have.

2009-03-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

Inspired by some of the teachings of my teachers, im urged with a sensation to write the below words.

Humans are such blunt animals.
They don't know how to cherish the things around them.
That is, before they had realised that they had lost possession of it.
And from then moment on, they start to panic. Regret. Repent.
Why couldn't they have thought of the consequences, that neglection and uncare to their possessions could possibly result?
Are humans really the most intelligence animal alive?

I SERIOUSLY DOUBT SO.

Even if, the things one possesses comes in great abundance,
That doesn't mean it becomes valueless!
Lets say, for example, a popular guy is showered with all the love, care and concern by his fellow classmates.

BUT HE ABUSES THE LOVE GIVEN TO HIM.

What would result?
It will only bring him isolation and quarantine, as his friend slowly, bit by bit, retrieve back the concern they showered on him.

AND THEN. He will start to realise. He will find himself left with nothing. As he DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO CHERISH.

I realised the above words. As I often neglect those around me.
So, from this moment onwards, I MUST cherish all the friends around me, as I will not have as much chance as I have now, when all of us graduate end-of-year.

And at the moment of graduation, i don't wanna be filled with regret (that i have not cherished my friends before ).

Whats left next year after separation will be only emotional nostalgia that brings along nasal sourness. I just can't bear that to happen...

爱

2009-03-21T19:44:00.001-07:00

你的存在，在我脑海里开启了另一个世界。
在那个世界里，我盲目地迷失了自己。

就因为，你的深邃眼神已蒙蔽了我的视线。
所以, 无庸置疑地, 我的眼里只有你。

我早在你设下的泥沼里，深陷不已。
难道，我就那么的无法自拔?

错了。
就算泥沼有多么的粘稠，我都能用千方百计, 释放我自己。
我深信，只要我肯解脱泥沼的粘稠纠缠，
总会有出路的。

但是，我不打算解脱。

因为，仅有陷入泥沼，我才有接近你的理由。
如果陷入泥沼能让我更亲近你，何乐而不为呢?
虽然身在随时会被泥沼吞咽的险境，
我并不惧怕。
因为，我知道唯有完全的被吞没，你才会完全的拥有我。
　

我也才能完全的拥有你。

CHiN XiAN

my 心里话

2009-03-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

****************************
你对我有多么的重要
但我始终都开不了口.
我有那样的爱你.
终于我失去了你.
****************************
你知道吗?
我有多么多么的后悔后悔没让你知道,
你对我有多么的重要.
如果时间可以倒流我一定会向你诉说爱上你!!!!

this song reflects... on me?

2009-03-21T06:16:00.000-07:00

周杰伦 - 开不了口
才离开没多久就开始担心今天的你过得好不好
整个画面是你
想你想的睡不着
嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样
还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你想你想的都会笑
没有你在我有多难熬(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层我试着努力向你奔跑
爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要
我后悔没让你知道安静的听你撒娇
看你睡着,一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我
没有你在我有多难熬(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层我试着努力向你奔跑
爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱
就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要
我后悔没让你知道安静的听你撒娇
看你睡着,一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我

90/3/09

2009-03-20T23:09:00.000-07:00

well, i actually planned to blog yesterday but... it was a busy day for me to do so...

Anyway, im going to blog abt wad happened yesterday :)

yesterday, was a very good day.
im given hope.
im given more energy.
im given assurance.
im given something that i was void of, a long time ago just that few moments, playbacks of the fun times we had last year gushed into my mind.
And for that, im contented. that moment resulted in a day of happiness for me.
I bet that happiness will overflow, into more upcoming days....

BANZAI~

wapiang... today damn fed up

2009-03-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

A devil of yesterday,
transform into an angel today.
The devil yesterday hid from its wrongdoings.
Feeling all righteous.
However, the angel today saw others as devils.
And started KP-ing them.
The devils that were scorned at, were dumbfounded by the absolute,
contradicting change of the angel.
The devils remained silent.
Each of them mused, "the angel could turn back into her old self just as quick as how she transform from a devil to an angel. I'm positive we won't have to wait long for that transformation again..."

We shall see...

THE END

p.s *if u one day stumble upon my blog. Repent.

HI! this will be my first post for this blog… so… happy reading:)

2009-03-13T06:25:00.000-07:00

October 17, 2008

i just finished reading a chinese romance book called (( 檞寄生 )) its by a guy called 蔡智恒 a.k.a 痞子蔡... if u got the time i would recommend u this book… it can give u quite some inspirations of life.

p.s i’ve already read 3 books of his… and i believe that all of his workpiece are worth reading… 2 thumbs up ^^

CHiN XiAN

TAY CHiN XiAN

郭静 - 心墙

Taeyeon's "If"

Damn good news received today.

Badminton again! XD

Played badminton today...

Healthcare in singapore

情非得已 - 庾澄庆

Unnecessary yakking.

林峰 and 泳儿 - 明天以后

傻瓜 - 温岚(female singer)

张学友 - 心如刀割

突然好想你 - 五月天

Nice nice...四面楚歌 J Chou

Water - Gaseous state.

DnT is wearing me out...

First time played pool

Finally... its over!!!

Tmr O lvl's chinese!

Your call

25/5/09

Second chance. Faber drive.

冤

歌曲:被爱是幸福 歌手:郑中基(my 2nd fave singer)

Memories.

Time is the best medicine.

周杰伦 - 白色风车

周杰伦 - 借口

心血来潮，随兴挥豪

隐风

周定纬 - 远在身边

围墙-李玖哲

想太多-李玖哲

I'll be waiting.

The second consecutive dream...

周杰伦 - 回到过去

10 very very meaningful sentences...

歌曲:太想爱你

隐风

白虎

周董

Nice song...

Meaningful song by my favourite Singer

Color Codes. Red - Most IMPORTANT. Blue - 2nd. Purple - 3rd. Orange - 4th.

This will be my 4th post today...

憎恨

Baffled.

Regret.

Humans just don't know how to cherish the things they have.

爱

my 心里话

this song reflects... on me?

90/3/09

wapiang... today damn fed up

HI! this will be my first post for this blog… so… happy reading:)

歌曲:被爱是幸福歌手:郑中基(my 2nd fave singer)